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fly – the flight plan

Thursday, September 2, 2010

have i mentioned how giddy i am for my newest project, fly? i’ve been mentioning it a bit and even offered a special early bird discount to those on my mailing list. many of you are interested in more details, so here is a bit more about this amazing experience. if you’d like to take advantage of the early bird special – you must register by this sunday, september 5. click here to join the mailing list, where you’ll get your own special link to purchase with 2 chances at a discount!


a unique, one on one creative haven offered both online and here in the bay area.

yes i said one on one. finding yourself in your photography. finding your voice, your art and learning what makes your photos you. pushing through your own ‘winter’ and coming out fresh and ready to tackle your passion with a new set of eyes. nothing technical, nothing about business. it’s quite the opposite actually. this has been my journey the last year. going from feeling like i needed to do what so and so did to realizing that i’m MUCH happier when i’m being me and shooting the way i like to shoot. releasing those demons. i had to strip it all down to find the ME in my photography, to appreciate and love it. i want to help you do the same.

prior to flight, i’ll ask you to fill out a detailed questionnaire. i want to know where you are, what brought you to fly, to know your heart. you will share “your story” with me through photos, writing, and bits & pieces of your favorite things.

  • the in person is very, very hands on and very personal. our weekend here in the bay area will begin with dinner together friday evening at one of my favorite local venues, a chance to get to know each other better. saturday morning over a delicious starbucks, we will dive into flight. depending upon your own preferences – we will venture out into one of the many amazing locations here: the beach, napa valley, the redwoods, a grassy field with old quilt and picnic.
  • based on my own journey, i have crafted a unique syllabus that is customized some depending upon you and your story; including prompts and artistic projects, as well as looking through your five faves (details on this will come with your pre-flight care package). together we will be looking at what catches your eye, why do you love it, the emotion you feel towards it. what inspires you, what made you pick up the camera in the first place. what path have you gone down that has led you elsewhere? there will be writing, soul searching, and loads of self kindness involved. our day will be full of amazing discoveries and girl time, together.
  • our time will close sunday with brunch and a styled “flying free” mini session with yours truly as a way of celebrating the journey you are on.
  • investment $1900 (does not include airfare or hotel)

  • two weeks together. the syllabus is very similar, customized to your own soul, however with a bit of a different approach. your prompts and projects will come in the form of PDF downloads and personal lovelies mailed to you. in order to make this as personal as possible via the internet, we will have set # of skype sessions, emails, & phone calls.
  • though not as intimate as the in person, it is still a very individual and wonderful session.
  • investment $800

  • both types of flying will include the most fabulous individual swag with both photography related yummies, as well as delicious handmade goods that are meant to encourage you as you fly forward.
  • i require / suggest that as a continuation of fly, you begin a new, personal blog. a place you can keep to yourself or share. a blog for your flying. more details will come to you on this upon registration.
  • your level of photography knowledge is a non-issue. in no way is this a critique from me on your work, on the contrary it is about freeing yourself from the standards you feel go before you. to toss the rules and pressure out the window. come as you are.
  • it is my desire that whatever avenue you choose to fly with me, you will grasp the individual one on one approach. something totally unique and very much ME.
  • if you should register and have a conflict in dates chosen i am happy to re-schedule your session, however no refunds will be issued.
  • read a bit more about what inspired fly here.

i am booking only four fly sessions through the end of 2010 but will begin scheduling for 2011 with three at this time. we do have a few spots left so be sure to sign up for the mailing list to get the early bird special or stay tuned for regular registration monday, september 6!

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by Angie

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holding steady.

Thursday, September 2, 2010

right now i feel a bit like i’m holding steady to the side of safety. a lot of change has occurred in our little family over the last few weeks, and to be totally honest there are moments in the day that i feel as though i’m drowning. this workin from home, full time mama business is tough. i want to be everything to everyone, to be on top of my emails, and ahead in work. i crave time to be creative without having a deadline or research to do. i want to wake before the sun to bake my babies breakfast, instead i stumble out of bed when they wake me at 5 or 6 am. there is bickering that pounds my head, picky eaters who send me over the edge. my patience is thin and my heart heavy. yet i push on. i adore them, i love them through the easy days and the rough. through the currents that try to rock my sea, i’ll hold steady to this boat.

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five & three quarters

Friday, August 27, 2010

meet my son. he is quite the character, telling me “now that fall is near mama, i won’t be five & a half, i’ll be five & three quarters. *mom note: pretty sure this is from his recent obsession with a certain lad named harry potter and his first encounter with platform nine & three quartas (written in my attempted british tongue)

he is dramatic and thoughtful. silly and full of love for his mama.

he enjoys stargazing and playing under the table in his imaginary world, full of battles and creatures that “will totally scare you mom”.

he loves to wear sweats and is a mad good snuggler.

he really likes to watch discovery channel, spongebob, and won’t admit it – but silently smiles when the backyardigans come on for his brother.

he shows love by hugs and kisses and spending time together.

he’s got a great laugh and an even better smile. his eyes dance when he is excited, and i wouldn’t trade seeing that for the world.

and just this week i handed him off to his teacher, the beginning of a new chapter of life. for 3.5 hours a day she becomes his focus, his way of learning. mama leaves him in good hands, but with such bittersweet joy.

though he doesn’t enjoy these twice yearly sessions i design – he happily goes along with it. my first born, the one who gave me the title of mama. to the moon and back i adore him.

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wearing us to school.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

if you followed my other blog, you may remember when i wrote about my son’s special key chain we ordered for pre-school & the story behind it. to give you a recap:

a few christmases ago i recieved a beautiful gift from my husband, a hand-stamped necklace with my boys names on it from the fabulous the vintage pearl. i just adore this treasure, wearing it almost daily. it’s a delicate sterling silver heart topped with a simple fresh-water pearl. perfection if you ask me.

over that year my then four-year-old has noticed it asking what it says and why i like to wear it so much. he’s concluded that i just want to always wear him and his brother on my heart. (insert sappy mom tears) “of course!” i tell him. “this way you and luke are never far from me.” he smiles and skips along his merry way.

right around the time he started pre-school, my loving boy began mentioning how much he loves that i ‘take them with me everywhere‘ and that he would really like to be able to take us with him everywhere. quickly the wheels were turning in my head. how could i deny my precious first born of the simple desire to keep me in his pocket? i contacted erin and we came up with the perfect solution in the form of a keychain.

fast forward to this day. a day i’ve silently dreaded for about 5.5 years. kindergarten. in preparation for the big event (you know, because his pm class gets to enjoy lunch together), and my sweet boy realizing that we would no longer munch on lunch together during the week (insert giant wells of tears)… so we came up with the perfect solution, the keychain.

now not only will i be with him, but our little lukie bug  and dad as well. every day at lunch time, not far from where he sits. the three of us will enjoy our mid-day meal as one, though not in the same room. thank you erin for the gift that is your amazing work. now i’m off to wipe my tears and tap my fingers until i can walk up to that classroom and retrieve my biggest boy.

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introducing: fly.

Monday, August 23, 2010

Hilary Duff - Fly < – - – - a bit of music to inspire.

a personal project has been brewing for some time & i am thrilled to give you just a taste of it today. since the day i launched the creative mama back in january of ‘09 i had a vision of helping other women, mamas, creative souls. i knew that first step was TCM, however. at the time i wasn’t sure where it would lead or what my heart would tell me – but the events of this last year have brought it all to fruition.

you see i went through a very difficult season of life in 2009, it was definitely a “winter”. PPD was still weighing heavily in my heart and i was overwhelmed, lost, and just plain burnt out. i was grasping for straws, trying to fit into this “mold” that i felt i needed to wear (as a mother, a wife, a friend, blogger, but mostly a photographer). it was uncomfortable and painful in both an emotional and physical way. i wrote a bit about it for the i am enough collaborative here.

it took a heart-wrenching journey but i stripped down all the layers i’d been harboring and found a raw and fresh ang. i dug deep and revealed this amazing artist who had been just absolutely crushed because of the lies and standards i myself had set. no one else.

it was time for me to fly and once i did i felt a freedom i can’t begin to describe.

like a beacon in the night i felt such a strong urge to help other artists. without prompting, i began to get emails and messages from you amazing women – i read the pain in your words and the heartache you too feel as you’ve lost touch with that inner-most being that got you to pick up that camera in the first place. i haven’t shared too much of my journey online but the bits and pieced i did through my blogs, seemed to have spoken to you. i’m humbled and honored. i can now look back at that time with the certainty that although it was rough, i wouldn’t be the same person i am today had i not gone through it.

hence my new project was born… fly: loving the art within.

a unique, one on one creative haven offered both online and here in the bay area.

yes i said one on one. finding yourself in your photography. finding your voice, your art and learning what makes your photos you. pushing through your own winter and coming out fresh and ready to tackle your passion with a new set of eyes. nothing technical, nothing about business. it’s quite the opposite actually. that has been my journey the last year. going from feeling like i needed to do what so and so did to realizing that i’m MUCH happier when i’m being me and shooting the way i like to shoot. releasing those demons. i had to strip it all down to find the ME in my photography, to appreciate and love it. i want to help you do the same.

  • registration opens monday morning, september 6.
  • only four available one on ones will be scheduled for 2010.
  • if you feel as though you are ready to fly, the next step is signing up for the mailing list below.

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    my second sunshine.

    Friday, August 20, 2010

    you are my sunshine

    my second sunshine

    you make me happy

    when skies are gray

    you’ll never know luke, how much i love you. please don’t take my sunshine away.

    sang faithfully for the last 765 nights & will continue to as long as you’ll let me.

    xoxo, mama

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    paw paw’s box.

    Wednesday, August 18, 2010

    a few months ago my dad gifted me with this box.

    hand crafted by his dad’s dad in the 1930’s – it is a treasure trove. filled to the brim with priceless photos, smells of age, and is barely held together by it’s old hinges.

    well, my dad’s dad is sick. my paw paw is sick. in fact, soon he will no longer be with us on this earth and the 3000 miles that separate us aches me inside.

    a recent conversation between my grandparents went something like this…

    paw paw: i’m leavin’ you know.

    grandma: where are you goin’ bill?

    paw paw: nancy… you know i’m dyin’.

    needless to say i’ve spent some time back in the box lately. connecting with my history, running my fingers over the same paper that these amazing and interesting people also touched. closing my eyes i often imagine life for my paw paw, the very very good times and the absolute worst. i’ve been thinking of my grandma and how she now knows that soon her love will have gone on ahead of her. thinking of my own dad and how it must ache him to pieces to be so far away.

    growing up their home was filled with the aroma of stale cigarette smoke and sweet tea. their soaps were always on and their arms ready for hugs. never did a time go by that i didn’t feel like the absolute best thing to happen to them. a long and amazing life they’ve lived, yet it makes this process none the easier. getting to know those who came before us has become such a pull to me now. being sure i’m calling and sending handwritten notes. letting them know how much they mean to me and how they’ve truly shaped who i am.

    so until we get the news, i’ll continue to hang out with the box thinking that in a way paw paw and i are connected. and then? i’ll still cherish the box, just a teensy bit more.

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    time warp.

    Tuesday, August 17, 2010

    i miss going to giants games with this guy.

    i miss silly self portraits with my (then) only child.

    i miss this wrinkly little face.

    i miss her.

    i miss fitting into these jeans & wearing them to todos santos with d for bagels.

    i miss spending too much $ at the scrap expos.

    i miss hosting get togethers.

    i miss 2123 sugartree. our first home . it’s been in the family for 20+ years and as of this week, is no longer in the family :: heart breaks ::

    admission: so as you can probably tell, lately i’ve been sort of stuck in a time warp. it’s true. a lot of tiny things have happened over the last few weeks that sort of bring back memories of good times for me – it’s a touch bittersweet.  2006 and 2007 found me in my mid-twenties, we lived in a wonderful home much too big for our little family of three, and i spent my days scrapbooking, writing, and planning girl’s nights. i was finally at a weight i was happy with (after tons of hard work). the internet was something i rarely used.

    i wasn’t the creative mama, i wasn’t known for my camera, i was just married to ‘j dubb’ and mama to the little boy who looked just like him. i was a mops mom, a friend, and deep down… still an artist. but that’s just it, i was simply me. an artist, but still me. so at this interesting place in my life, i find myself fondly thinking back to that time. letting the snapshots i have take me back, wishing a bit i could have some of those moments to hold, yet thankful for the person i am today.

    in a way i’m grasping for ways to incorporate that ang with the ang who writes you today. i so badly want to reconnect to her, yet at the same time loving and appreciating this older and hopefully a bit wiser one. a challenge i don’t take lightly. i can sit and look through the old images, getting teary at what once was that is no longer – or i can wipe my tears and get off my butt. reconnecting with that old friend, working my way back to those darn jeans, and ultimately accepting the change that is inevitable.

    so i think i will.

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    the yellow project.

    Saturday, August 14, 2010

    do you ever spend time on your own blog? for whatever reason i was led to browse through around my various blogs this evening. i went from one to the next, looking back at old words and photographs. amazed that i’ve written as much as i have. my husband says i talk a lot, and he means… a lot. perhaps i should blog even more and give him a bit of a break? hehe.

    so anyhow, i was thinking that although i love the simplicity if this little corner of the internet, i felt i needed a burst of color. one thing led to another and i found a personal project i’d been working on in the spring that i intended to share back on my old blog – the yellow project.

    my sx-70 came to me last winter, i won’t go into the amount of $ i’ve spent on polaroid film, but whatever it is is absolutely worth it. there is something so raw and so beautiful about the tones this camera creates. the vintage blend gets me every. single. time.

    you could say i fell in love with yellow (mustard to be exact) sometime shortly after i got the sx-70. it just came to me one day, i began to see this mustard all over. not just in the lines of clothing but it began to stand out to me in films and magazines. a pop of it here and there and i got butterflies. i began to notice it daily. endless hours of evening chats with a good friend were literally over our love of mustard and chartreuse.

    and so the yellow project began. sure i could have captured it on my d300, but instead i forced myself to wait for the magic, to find this yellow in the greatest and tiniest of places. armed with my sx-70 and a few packs of film i began the journey. simple as it may sound it did my artist heart some good. a simple color.

    i’d encourage you to find a similar journey with whatever camera you have. heck, use your iphone. i hope to create some sort of collage sometime soon, mount and display it atop my desk on an easle. i thought i’d spruce up the old blog here with just a few of my favorite pieces from the yellow project. if you do your own, i’d love if you shared.

    all images taken with my sx-70 polaroid & scanned in.

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    by Angie

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    my greatest desire.

    Thursday, August 12, 2010

    my sister recently shared this quote on her blog and it struck a chord. i’ve been on a personal journey as of late, embracing where we are right now. accepting, loving, appreciating. it’s so easy for me to complain about the small things, to get easily frustrated and impatient with my lack of progress. when it all comes down to it though, my greatest desire is to be an example to my kids that i’ll love this life i was given. rain or shine.

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